Expressions of love...before this time would be words or letters -delivered in hollywood-style productions like Gone with the Wind - or written in poems or letters sealed in wax... Time to savour and contemplate. Because once uttered or written the declaration was made and couldnt be taken back.
It seemed a more relevant and important process - a priority rather than an after thought.
It was simply to express Love. To show someone else a vulnerability that would lead to the greatest strength. It seemed a big step. To take the time to write a letter. To not smudge the ink, to seal it for the last time before the one you loved read it. Do not erase it or lose it or take it for granted.
What was life like before the cellphone, internet and email. How was love spoken about..face to face...to look into the eyes and connect with the soul.
Now we have the sms...the ability to say i luv u...and press send...to make an assumption that somehow - in a million miles away the person receiving it will feel the same.
To connect through an appliance no more useful than a potatoe peeler. To make declarations in code and icons - to build all your love and soul into a few digital words that may come back to you.
Once sent - it goes into a cyber space of temporarily existance - because what is sent on sms has a shelve life of 5 minutes.
I am a victim of sms love...wanting ..waiting for it...hoping it was felt with the pain and joy it was sent with...to not have one sent back..the rejection is like a knife wound. How hard is it to send a text?
Because love should be spoken face to face...so the wounds can be made right there...so the PRESENCE of the one you LOVE will be there to see and feel the LOVE.
To know all of the LOVE that is in you and not in a computer - or a page - or a phone screen. It is easy to throw that love around. It is easy to write a status where love is declared to all...but how is that love lived...On facebook, twitter or email....NO!! That love is lived in TIME spent together, in pain shared, in memories created, in light shown, in intimacy through touching, in life lived, in giving and receiving.
And yet I am an addict to these forms of communication...because it is easier to hide behind clever words on a screen rather than show my REALNESS...and be WHO I am because rejection can be misinterpreted on a screen. He didnt mean that - his busy - his tired - his at work - he doesnt like to text.....
Sit with the love, feel it and know it. Connect with it...and then look within - cos the one you really love cant receive it by facebook, sms, twitter or email....
because the one who needs to get it the most is YOU!!!
Oh my word...your words are profoundly set in truth. You know I know exactly what you're talking about and while it's so quick to write an sms or assume from the lack of receiving one that it is because of me, because I'm not important enough, not special enough, not worthy of the time it would take to even write a simple sms. But the truth of it is that I am learning N, I'm really learning that it's not about me... I'm learning what you're talking about her and that my love for someone doesn't depend on whether they love me in return. Whether or not they do, I still love and that's ok. No one can dictate my worth to me and every sms that doesn't come back, every time I don't hear from someone or someone doesn't take time for me, I am learning more and more deeply that I am so important just because I am, even if others don't affirm that all the time. I am lovable just because I am, even if I don't love myself sometimes. We all are... Thank you for sharing such a profound truth. You're a sacred star.
ReplyDeleteMuch love and light,
Bon